54!
Today I am 54. 54 years of life on this planet. I would like to share something that has been in my heart lately and pray that the truth of it can help someone out there in a positive way. It is life-changing for me.
I was the oldest child in our family, my family position was “the caretaker”. I strived to make everyone happy, all of the time. I thought that this was my job. Being the oldest, a female, and many other factors all contributed to this self-made job description.
I have a very high empathy level and to tell you the truth, when someone is hurting, I hurt too. Deeply. Many times it is even physically painful for me. Last week with the Las Vegas shootings as well as a very dear friend passing away from a massive heart attack unexpectedly at the age of 49, leaving behind my dear friend and her three college-aged children. Additionally, the day to day pull of the many, ongoing needs here in our very rural part of Nigeria had me feeling overwhelmed and hopeless.
Dan and I were watching an episode of Cold Case last week, and the episode was a case from 2005. They played the song, “Fix You”, by Cold Play in the show and it reminded me of a cover version that I love and had forgotten about done by WorshipMob. It reminded me, that I cannot fix ANYTHING. I can pray, I can pray for discernment, wisdom, God’s will. BUT, even in the infinite and mighty power of a firstborn caretaker I can’t. FIX. ANYTHING. These words reminded me again of where our power comes from and who the FIXER truly is. It is not in my power, I don’t need to feel guilty, hopeless, or inadequate. I need to rest in the truth that I wasn’t made to fix, I was made to pray and obey.
My point for today is this: I hope you hear the truth in these words and feel them deep in your soul as I do today.
FIX YOU REVISED BY WorshipMob
When you try your best, but you don’t succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can’t sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something that you can’t replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
He will guide you home
And ignite your bones
He gave His life to fix you
High up above or down below
When you’re too in love to let it go
But if you never try you’ll never know
Just what you’re worth
He can guide you home
And ignite your bones
He gave his life to fix you
Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face and I
Tears stream down your face
When you can learn from your mistakes
Tears stream down your face and I
He will guide you home
And ignite your bones
He lived and died to fix you
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